I had only planned to stay at Bell for 3 or 4 years then I would move on. Well you know what happens to plans.
I got some money, bought a condo, got married, dealt with some family and personal issues, time went by. Now I find myself 18 years in. I wish I could say that everything was “hunky dory” but it really isn’t
My health is failing and it’s forcing me to take a long look at my future and what I want to do with it. Work/life balance is a new buzzword for the 2010’s and I find myself focused on it. I have given a lot to the company I work for. I’m not going to lie, I’ve taken a chunk too.
However recent changes have forced my career into a direction where I fear I cannot follow. Longer/stricter hours. Less exposure to new technology and a return to “basement dweller” work are all turn offs for me.
If my health is going to cut my working life short I certainly don’t want to spend it in the basement running lab tests.
That brings me to a hard question. Can I leap without a net? Can I walk away from job without one to go to? Where would I find the courage to do that?
One thing I have discovered. When you are with a company for long time you develop something akin to being “institutionalized.” I can’t imagine that I would be good at anything else. I can’t imagine that any other company would take me. I know that these feelings are not real but they are proving to be quite difficult to overcome.
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